On the day I leave, I want to be lying down — YouTube from the CEC Library

What I find very curious is that I always seek to understand things through feeling. Emotion does not work as well for me, but feeling offers much richer perception. I believe that this life should be enjoyed and made worthwhile. I believe that we need to leave the sphere of our emotions and stop stimulating them constantly, because they may be the only thing that makes us feel alive. We are familiar with parties, celebrations, compulsions, crowds, and mobs, all within the emotional space and the emotional chakras.

At this level, we fear something inevitable: the loss of the physical body, which we call death because we do not understand life. I believe that dying is a fantastic experience, but we cannot share this experience after death because most people cannot see, and those who can often distort what they see. We need spectacular effects in order to believe that we saw a light, a spirit, or a shadow.

The deaths I witnessed were a great learning experience. The people I knew who died had a good level of perception, clarity of thought, and ability to relate to others. Most died while lying down, asleep. This leads me to reflect on the moment when "Sister Death" took them. I think it is wonderful not to be standing at that moment because, owing to my excesses at work, I may not reach the day I set for my departure.

I think that, on the day I go to catch the last ship, I want to be lying down so that my departure is peaceful for those who know me. I do not want them to suffer, because everyone pays an unnecessary price, including me. To avoid this, I would like to die like a cat, far from everyone, so that by the time they found out, some time would already have passed, without suffering for anyone. Perhaps I go too far on this point, but I believe that people should remain happy and strong, outside the destructive emotional sphere.

Changing the subject slightly, I see many people sending messages about their suffering. They speak of depression, fears, anger, and neediness, creating a team that works against them. How does one explain this to someone who cannot discern that their actions generate suffering? It is a path, and people are being fed in the opposite direction, without knowing what is good or bad, doing everything that appears in their lives. We cannot resolve these issues by decree; for most people, it will happen through suffering. I have known few people who made a happy decision after an unpleasant experience. We are always pulled toward continuing to do what we were doing.